Showing posts with label U2. Show all posts
Showing posts with label U2. Show all posts

Saturday, May 27, 2017

An Open Letter to U2: Their Impact on a Lost Generation







To Bono, Adam, Edge, and Larry:

Each night throughout The Joshua Tree Tour 2017, as the colored stage lights shine like sun through stained glass upon the crowd, the majority of us will be from Generation X. Taking The Joshua Tree back on tour is not only significant, it is truly epic -- specifically to a generation of Americans who grew up in a Crisis Era. From the days you were a garage band, Generation X has watched society fall apart -- from corporate greed to recession, from scandals to toxic meltdowns, from riots to war -- it has all been part of continued Crisis for us.

A few years ago, I visited the Reagan Library in Simi Valley, California -- a testament to the suffering of Gen X owing to the turbulent events of his presidency that spanned our formative years. It was a painful walk through a wasteland of our youth. Within this building were images reminding me of living my childhood under the threat of nuclear annihilation, an exhibit reminding me that as a five-year-old, I had to try to understand what the term "assassination attempt" meant, and a picture with a few poetic words reminding me that America had hand picked seven heroes to send into space for its children to love, and then let us watch them perish on live TV. It was Mourning in America in our youth and, strangely, it feels a whole lot like that now. In recent years, whenever I hear Mothers of the Disappeared, I think about how all those children who disappeared in the 1980's were Generation X.

If Reagan was the grandfather we didn't quite understand, but tried to love because our family told us we should, Trump is the stepfather we hoped would never unpack his bags in our house. Reagan was inaugurated when many of us Gen Xers were still too young to vote, and most Gen Xers I hang out with voted for anyone but Trump. You understand we are dealing with resurgent issues our generation first confronted in the 1980's. You already know that in some ways, it feels that our society has taken a step backwards.

On this tour, as your fervent voice fills the stadiums and the ethereally pure sound of the Edge's guitar sends lightening through our cells, for many Gen Xers, The Joshua Tree is still playing in the background of our lives. As you know, some say Still Haven't Found is the anthem of our generation. For a lot of us, you have been our favorite band for as long as anyone can have one. The rifts of Adam's bass are forever etched into our consciousness. The rhythms of Larry's drums formed a musical foundation during our most impressionable years. Thank you for creating the soundtrack of a generation.

If we were raised with a weak moral compass, your music helped us calibrate it. You opened our eyes to those around the world who have suffered even more than we have. If we were taught to value 80's materialism, you opened our eyes to famine and suffering around the world. In a decade when it was tempting to be consumed with fashion and image, you shifted our thoughts to the pain of The Troubles in Ireland, to the wounds from Apartheid in South Africa, to the injustice and suffering in Latin America. Even now, your messages of women's rights, extreme poverty, and ending HIV in our generation encourage us to keep raising our voices, to keep fighting the good fight. In 2013, I did a photographic pilgrimage to the Mojave Desert about The Joshua Tree album. What it got me thinking about is that we should do all we can as a generation to leave this desert a better place than we found it, to work to alleviate the suffering of others, to pass on glimpses of hope as we get glimpses of it ourselves.

The tragedy, beyond Gen X growing up in a Crisis Era, is that we have always lived in one. And all the while, as the story of our lives unfolded, your music played on the radio, on our record players, cassette players, CD players, and eventually our MP3 players and smartphones. You played your music for a 'lost' generation, a fatherless latchkey generation, a 'throwaway' generation. And that agony we felt is essentially what punk is a response to, and what your roots are, which may be why you understood us so well. If there was nothing consistent in our lives, at least your music was. Thank you for giving us the full circle of this music, especially if we missed it the first time around....

When the first Joshua tour took place, I was just a kid in New Mexico who didn't have enough allowance money for a ticket, and no one to drive me west to Tempe or south to Las Cruces. That's part of why this tour, this second chance is so incredible. And for those Xers who can't make it to any of the Joshua concerts this time because of the weight of life, perhaps you could perform spontaneously in some city as they commute home from work. As you did in  LA or here in San Francisco in 1987... maybe rock and roll can stop the traffic once again.

It took a few miracles, but I somehow found my place up front during your recent Santa Clara show. As I stood between the branches of the Joshua Tree shaped stage, the show was everything I hoped it would be. More than once my veins were filled with adrenaline. More than once my eyes were filled with tears. It was worth the 30 year wait.


Our cell phones will be lighting up arenas like ten thousand candles - a reflection of the light you brought to us. And if the last three decades have worn us down, if your performance of some song or another is not quite as strong as before, know that the rhythm and chords of our lives will lift like incense to the top rows of stadiums in these upcoming summer nights and we will sing the words for you. We know those words well, because those words have carried us, you have carried us, let us carry you.

To second chances and grace,

Chloe Koffas
San Jose, CA



This piece was translated into Italian and published on the site for Italy's U2 fan club:




(c) Writing and photos by Chloe - The Mojave Desert, 
U2's The Joshua Tree Tour 2017 at Levi's Stadium, Santa Clara, CA








Tuesday, April 26, 2016

The Psalms - Why What is Beautiful is What is Real

Fuller Seminary, a theological graduate school, recently launched Fuller Studio, a place to embrace a wider circle of voices from around the world.  This includes intercultural conversations on the Christian faith, along with women's issues in the leadership of the church, and interfaith dialogue.   Recently, Fuller Studio released a short film that includes conversation between Bono and Pastor Eugene Peterson about The Psalms from the Bible, and about The Message, a version of the Bible which Peterson translated from the original Hebrew and Greek into English in an idiomatic sense and in contemporary language - an extraordinary scholarly effort both of the mind and of the heart.  

An afternoon spent in a cozy lakeside cabin with a mug of hot coffee, in a discussion about  literature, art, and theology near a crackling fire with kindred souls, I can't imagine a place I'd rather be....




The Psalms are full of the rawness about the agony of life, the questions we have that can go unanswered for so long, and the deep sorrow, despair, and confusion we all experience.   The Psalms are beautiful because they are real.   Praying, in the way that the Psalms are prayed, isn't being nice before God, says Peterson, it's not pretty.  It's honesty, brutal honesty.   Bono said he would like to see more of this type of realism in life and in art and in music - write about a bad marriage you had, he says, write about why you are pissed off at the government....

U2 had an enormous impression on my spiritual life in my formative years growing up Generation X, and they still do.  I spent some Sundays of my childhood in church surrounded by Protestant hymns from the last two centuries; I spent some afternoons of my twenties listening Catholic Gregorian chant CDs, and now my Sunday mornings are likely to include Byzantine chant of the Orthodox liturgy, yet to be honest, nothing reaches my soul or connects me to God like the music of U2.  On that same wavelength, while I appreciate reading or hearing Scripture in any translation of the original text, I truly love experiencing it in my own context - in contemporary language that resonates with the relationship I have with the English language - including the metaphors I already understand.  This is a profound comfort to me, and because of Peterson's research and translation, we have this.  What U2 has done, and what Eugene Peterson has done for contextualizing Scripture into our modern lives, is very similar.  Many thanks to both of them for what they have done for Generation X.   As a quintessential Gen Xer, I can say that both of them have helped make my faith more beautiful, both of them have made my faith more real.

Bono often reads (or sings) from the Psalms during U2's concerts.  If you are interested in reading the Psalms that Bono refers to in the film as they are translated in Eugene Peterson's The Message you can download the first 40 of them for free here.


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(c) 2016 -  writing by Chloe Koffas -
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Saturday, August 1, 2015

A Letter to My Teenage Self From 20 Years in the Future

Dear Teenage Self,

This letter is to be read by you the day after you graduate from high school.  It is being sent to you from your older self in the future after you have just gone to your 20th reunion. Today (in 1995) your friends will take you to the airport and you will leave the place where you were born and grew up. You will look down on the desert ground as your plane ascends and your life will change forever.

You didn't get into some prestigious university, but that would have actually stood in the way of your calling - so it all works out for the absolute best.  You will end up transferring around to different schools until you are done with college, and you will do exactly what you need to do, so don't worry.  You don't have to do what everyone else is doing.

You came of age in a city that was stunningly beautiful with July monsoon thunderstorms and fluorescent pink sunsets, yet it is full of a dark and haunting and relentless undertow.  You got pulled into that undertow, but you made your way back to the surface.  This will be part of the reason you will be able to overcome enormous adversity in your life.  All the things that happened led you to something better, they were for a reason, they were to help you become the next thing you needed to become each time you needed to become something else.  Even the darkest things of your life eventually find their way to a place of redemption.

Get used to the feeling that there are more questions than answers.  Get used to the feeling that you aren't completely at home in this world.  In all your years on this planet, something deep within will continue an echo that you were meant for a world beyond much better than this one.  In the meantime, through the decades, you'll have to make the most of your surroundings.  Through every Death Valley that you travel, always remember the way the New Mexico summer rain dotted the desert sand and each small cactus would drink up the water.  In your life there will be many droughts.

You were blessed with good friends in your growing up years who will find again even when you have lost touch for a while.  They will be there to help you when you de-rail, to bring you back to the real you when you get swayed by something out in the world that doesn't have your best interests in mind.

Work hard and try not to leave things unfinished with people - while growing up seemed to take an eternity, the years of adulthood, and of life, somehow are very short.


You will find that you are much braver than you thought you were.  You will find a way to use your voice.  You will rise beyond your circumstances.  You always did.  You will find a way to cut ties with people who do not respect you, and once you work through your anger, believe it or not, you will find ways to move on from all the disappointment you experienced in your youth.


Here is the most important thing: listening to your heart instead of your head.  The heart, the core of the heart, is where God speaks, the head is where ego speaks, and within your mind, your deepest anxieties are the echos of people telling you how to live your life even though they don't know how to live their own.

Eventually, people will stop telling you how to live your life.

You will find an extraordinary connection to your generation that you will not have enough context to see until you are much older.  You will realize that a lot of the suffering you endured in your younger years was not all that uncommon - all the things you went through were the things that many people went through - this will help you to no longer feel sorry for yourself, all of that energy will eventually go toward using your own story to help others.

It never gets easy, but it does get easier.  In every dusk that seems darker than it should, in every night that seems longer than it should, the sun will rise - it always did, it always does.

You find love, eventually.  You have a daughter who is just as strong-willed as you are and that is what will give you the confidence to know that she will also make it in this world.

Through long term relationships, and parenting, and by years of quiet observation, you will begin to see people differently.  You will start to see that people that you viewed as gods while you were young, were really just fragile and even broken, and that is why you will start out in life angry, and stay deeply angry for a long time, but eventually you will end up forgiving.  You will realize that even though there were people in your life that were monsters became that way because of the monsters in their own lives.

You are about to put your cap and gown into its storage box.  You are tired because you just walked out of your graduation party at 2am and felt like you are in free fall because everything that was ever familiar to you is now going away. But it is those moments of feeling completely lost, that if you reach to the depths, you will know what to do, and you will end up exactly where you are supposed to be.  So don't worry so much, and hold your ground, and tune in to the deepest parts of your heart.

U2 will still be your favorite band all these years later, and to quote lyrics from a song that you will not hear for twenty years,

"Every breaking wave on the shore tells the next one there'll be one more."

Leave your mark on the shore, with both hands.

 -From your Thirty-Something Self



(c) 2015 Writing and photography by Chloe Koffas - all rights reserved

Monday, January 6, 2014

The Joshua Tree and Generation X




The Joshua Tree is considered one of the greatest albums of rock history, and has had an enormous influence on Generation X. Of all the music I listened to when I was growing up, no other band affected me as much as U2. Though I didn't see how much they were influencing my generation when I was a kid playing cassette tapes, it is really cool to see the bigger picture now of how many of my fellow Xers were connected to the music the way I was. The Joshua Tree is considered one of U2's finest moments.  


From the 1980s on, I dreamed of going on some sort of pilgrimage to the Joshua Tree National Park in California to find the joshua tree that was photographed for the album cover of U2's 1987 album. The album left a substantial mark on my spiritual life and the tree was a symbol of that. When my chance finally came to plan a trip to do this in late 2013, I started doing some reading online, and I was shocked to discover that it was a myth...that the tree from the album was not actually at this national park, but out in some remote part of Death Valley. 









I was also completely shocked to discover that the Joshua tree from the album cover had died. This was like finding out that an old friend has passed away when you haven't had a chance to say goodbye. I found pictures online of the tree, now laying in a wake on the desert floor, its gnarled branches curling back in on itself. I knew I couldn't  bear to go see it since I could hardly even look at the online photos. I changed my plans and decided to do a brief pilgrimage, documented by photography, that captured the essence of the Joshua Tree era - Death Valley and the Mojave desert. 






We rented a car in LA and headed up Highway 15. Traveling back and forth on this freeway through the desert between Las Vegas and LA, as well as Red Rock Canyon, Nevada is where I took all these photos. Open blue skies gave way to clouds rolling in to spill their shadows over mountains and mesas.

I had The Joshua Tree album playing on my MP3 while I captured a lot of these images, and thoughts of watching Rattle and Hum on my VCR a hundred times in my teenage years kept emerging - the documentary that captured The Joshua Tree tour as U2 played in stadiums all over America in the later part of the 80s. While Rattle and Hum showed the members of U2 experiencing the vastness of America and its musical roots - including Graceland and Sun Studios - the deserts of the American Southwest represent that era in a fuller sense - the metaphor of the spiritual struggle of this life






The American Southwest is where my Gen X existence began. When you grow up in the desert, it instills in you a certain tenacity, a propensity toward survival when the world tries to beat you down. Everything growing on the desert floor knows that when it rains, you drink in as much as possible and store it withing you for survival. I grew up holding hope within me when I could find it like a cactus holds water. 

The energy and electricity from the rain and thunder of the July monsoon seasons of my youth would stay within me to get me though the cold winds of fall and the unforgiving bleakness of the winters. All the while, the songs of U2 played in the background of my life, on my Walkman, and on my stereo. I played The Joshua Tree so many times on my tape player that I wore out multiple cassettes. The same thing happened with multiple CDs. 









The Joshua Tree album addresses many of the issues that were happening at the time it was recorded - specifically in America during the Reagan years - and these were the formative years of Generation X.  When you look at what was happening in the world in the 1980s socially, economically, and politically,  it is strange how similar all of it is to the problems of today. That may be why people consider this the album of Gen X - not just for our formative years back then, but for our lives, for our generation. This type of tree was named for the Prophet Joshua, and this became a prophetic album for our times. It is a look at corruption, of oppression, of those living outside of the American dream. It is a look at problems in many other parts of the world as well. It was a calling for us to begin to use our moral compass as adolescents, just as it is a reminder for us to keep that same compass fine-tuned as adults. 



In the middle of the decade of the 80's when many of us Gen Xers were starting to encounter existential questions, U2 was teaching us to open our eyes to a bigger picture.  In the midst of all the excess, flashiness, and florescent colors of the time, there was a completely different consciousness emerging - and U2 captured it, or maybe even created it, with their album liner's images of the desert in black and white photography. The album, both through lyrics and images, capture the greed and bleakness in America during that time. While materialism was becoming more and more prevalent in mainstream Western culture, and while middle class Americans were spending hours and the mall racking up debt on their credit cards from fashion purchases, Bono was pointing us toward feeding the hungry, and clothing the naked. While 80s televangelism was often busy making a mockery of true Christianity, the band reminded us that God is bigger than all that.   The band showed us that real Christianity can exist by truly seeing others - all others - regardless of what continent they are on, as our brothers and sisters. Over the years, from Live Aid to The One Campaign U2 has reminded us that compassion is how to live out faith. Amnesty International's A Conspiracy of Hope, anti-apartheid, and many other social issues all were a part of The Joshua Tree era. Those who saw the concerts live heard about these causes in between songs.  U2's earlier music had opened my eyes to the struggles going on in Ireland at the time, and as their music continued on, and new albums emerged, my eyes were opened to issues going on all over the world. 


"Where the Streets Have No Name" was inspired in part by the desert paths of Death Valley. I had my headphones on and Streets was playing on my MP3 while I shot this photo.  I've heard it might also be a reference to rural Africa, and also to Belfast, or that it is about many different places simultaneously. Strangely enough, while I was shooting this photo, there was a tourist standing next to me from Ireland - which is of course, where all the members of U2 are from. 





Below is Red Rock Canyon at dusk and on the horizon are the twinkling lights of Las Vegas, where U2 filmed their "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" video in front of the Golden Nugget Casino. Many have called this song the anthem of Generation X and many have also called The Joshua Tree the album of Generation X.  






I saw Joshua Trees in person for the first time from the car and snapped shots through the window....






...Until I got to see one up close and let its sharp edges touch my hands like I've been wanting to for decades. Winter was settling in over the Mojave Desert that day, I was shaking from the freezing cold, and it was worth every minute.  This tree and I spent a few sacred moments together.... 





The tree from The Joshua Tree album tree fell around 2000, right as I was finishing up college and beginning to make my way in the world - it was as if this tree intuitively knew it was a symbol for us - that it stood up for as long as it could during the formative years of Gen X, and then passed on as those years came to an end.   






Anton Corbijn was the photographer for the album, and he was an enormous inspiration to me when I was initially learning photography - of developing black and white images with chemicals in the dark room in my high school days. 




Growing up Gen X, many of us watched our families disintegrate along with society, and from early in our lives we were taught, even if implicitly, to distrust institutions. We were the first generation in the Western world to be told we would not do as well in life as our parents.  Our inheritance as Gen Xers was an open, bleak desert. At first glance the desert is hopeless and empty.  At second glance it is full of possibility - open land on which to build, no constructs to hold us back, only the choice to be morally conscious, the choice to start again.  What I did not know in my youth was that I was listening to the music that affected me most along with my entire generation.  To be honest, I still haven't really found what I'm looking for.  I only get glimpses of it  - - like when the city lights are coming on at dusk, or when the desert sky turns into stained glass at sunset. My belief is that it is in the place beyond here where the fullness of light and hope is. That, I believe, is where we will find what we are looking for.






What I know is that while I am here, in this desert of a life, where I try to embrace courage and live out compassion, I realize more and more that my life is part of something much larger. 

And this is the ultimate pilgrimage -  to do all we can as a generation to leave this desert a better place than we found it, to work to alleviate the suffering of others, to pass on glimpses of hope as we get glimpses of it ourselves.   



(c) 2013 photography and writing by Chloe Koffas - all rights reserved.  





Thursday, October 20, 2011

Gen X and Live Aid (Week 20 of Fireflies at Dusk: A 52-Week Project)




"It's twelve noon in London, seven AM in Philadelphia, and around the world it's time for: Live Aid...."

- Richard Skinner (British Radio and TV Broadcaster) opening the show

Many Gen Xers remember Live Aid as a monumental event that took place on July 13, 1985.  The concert  was a collaborative effort between JFK stadium in Philadelphia and Wembley stadium in London, along with acts happening in other parts of the world like the INXS performance in Australia.  I remember the buzz going around my sleepy, small-town neighborhood about the event, though at the time I could not have imagined how big it all was.  I did not know that weekend would hold "the day music changed history."



I was just an elementary school kid who hadn't really gotten into music yet - I could recognize a couple of Top 40 songs from the radio, but that was about it. By the end of the day though, things had changed - I had been introduced to the best bands of the decade, along with the concept of social consciousness.  Bob Geldof of the Boomtown Rats had organized "the greatest live concert ever staged." Roughly $283 million was raised for the famine in Ethiopia at the time.
 
I will never forget that day.  Around 2 billion of us were watching this broadcast.  Gen X watched this together from both sides of the Atlantic and countries around the world.  I spent the day learning who different bands were.  I also worked on figuring out all the male singers with blond hair - Sting, David Bowie, Tom Petty, Bryan Adams....


Broken-up bands reunited even if just for one day, but when the day was over Duran Duran had split.  Queen's set was considered by many to be the best performance in rock history.  The feed was supplied by the BBC, ABC, MTV, and the radio.  Any musician you can think of from that era was there, meant to be there, or helped to write some of the music.  Fuses blew, cords came loose, a generator broke down, but the show went on.

Clips I decided to watch of Live Aid this week on YouTube included:

 1)  Bono saving the life of a girl about to be crushed by a massive wave of  people pushing forward toward the stage - they were performing Bad, and everyone thought he had just picked her to dance with him. These days he regrets the mullet.

2) Cyndi Lauper's commercial to get people to buy the Live Aid book - unlike now when you can go online and look at info. and photos of an event immediately, back then you had to drive to a book store, bring the book home, open it, and actually turn the pages....

3) Simple Minds singing Don't You Forget About Me - What could possibly be a more iconic Gen X moment than this?


Older Gen Xers will remember Live Aid as something they looked forward to for weeks - it was a day they took off to stay glued to the TV.  If they couldn't get the day off, they listened to Live Aid from radios as they worked at their minimum wage summer jobs.  Younger Gen Xers like myself may remember Live Aid as the Saturday we put our cartoons and toys aside to open our eyes to the larger world around us.


 
(c) 2011 photo and writing by Chloe - all rights reserved





Friday, August 26, 2011

Nothing Like a New Guitar (Week 12 of Fireflies at Dusk: A 52-Week Project)


I got myself an electric guitar.  I'd always wanted one as a teenager.  I never really stopped wanting one.






I bought one online several weeks ago.  When it was delivered to the doorstep, my heart was pounding.  I ripped open the packaging, set it aside, and planned to play it that night once I had gotten all the responsibilities of the day over with.  That afternoon, I was cutting some dried fruit with a dull steak knife (bad idea) which slipped onto my finger. It tore open my fingernail so deep that it even ripped into the skin underneath.  As blood came rushing up to the surface, the first thought I had before "Should I call 911?" was "Now I can't play my new guitar!"  This week it finished healing so I finally got to play.  I had taken a semester of guitar in college and I used to have a classical guitar, so I can do some basic chords.





All the music that influenced Gen X in our teenage years is still near to me.  The songs became threads in the fabric of who I am.  As a teenager, I'd allow myself one new CD per paycheck from my minimum wage jobs.  After picking up a new CD at the mall and bringing it home, I'd play the cd for the first time and I'd look at the lyrics and drink them in like poetry.  I remember the rush I'd get from the smell of the paper the lyrics were printed on. It was something like the smell of fresh cut grass after the lawn mower has just been put away, or when coffee beans are just coming out of the grinder, or maybe something like the chemicals we used in high school photography class back when pictures had to be developed in dark rooms and digital photos weren't part of our vernacular....

That is what inspired me.  That is why I wanted to play the guitar - to be a part of all that.

U2 was my favorite band then, and still is now.  Tonight, when the sun goes down, I'm going to take out the sheet music to The Joshua Tree.  These songs were the background music to my life, and to the lives of so many Gen Xers.  Tonight I'm going to play the songs I have loved with all the intensity that I felt when I heard them for the first time, the second time, and even the thousandth time.



(c) 2011 photography and writing by Chloe - all rights reserved